Cohiba, from reading your posts, I am curious as the whether you are trying to cling to the alcohol and blame everything on the coke.
I have limited experience with coke, and must have been doing it wrong because it never seems to impact me much, but I just get the sense you are blaming one substance much more than the other.
Have you ever had episodes of drinking (no coke) that you've completely regretted and felt bad about afterwards?
Maybe I'm off base, but figured I'd ask the question to see if maybe it rings true and can help in your recovery plan.