Cheers guys I am still so ****** off with myself doing cocaine and alcohol again, the reason I am feeling so depressed is I can tell this problem is spiraling out of control.
It is the cocaine that is the big issue but the alcohol is the trigger to it and I would never do coke sober so I now know the booze needs to stop.
Currently I just cant get my head straight and snap out this depression which is ******* me over as my new job has started and I cant get motivated as my personal life is such a joke.