Wish I would have just made a decision and just quit instead listening to others influence me into the unnecessary stress and mind @#%# of rehab and twisted daily brain killing dogma. Wasn't till I came to terms with the fact that I just had to retrain my brain to live with out constant intoxication that I snapped out of it. It's amazing how much effort we put into blurring out our most important and only real gift, our life.