It took some time, healing and understanding once I joined this forum.
What I've finally come to accept, is that anyone who was with my A would have eventually been treated the same way. It feels so personal when it happens, but I was simply the one who was there and got run over by the A truck.
Now, I look both ways before crossing and avoid toxic vehicles.
I no longer take it personal.
I know this hurts right now. Sending you hope and healing thoughts...
(((Hugs)))