Hi Clearmind:
I had an idyllic childhood and to this day I meet people from my childhood who always envied me having such wonderful parents. They always wanted my parents. And yet here I am addicted to alcohol. It started benignly enough. I really didn't start my professional drinking until around age 40 and then in the last couple of years it was just downright bad.
Personally, I'm not going to dwell on why because it's not going to change the fact that I cannot drink. I'm moving forward. You can too.