Cohiba, your posts sound like I could have written them when I was 25. I've tried moderating for years. I'm 40, and finally have taken the lifelong challenge. So right now I'm on Day 48, but I wish so very much that I was on year 15 of sobriety. You have that chance! Good for you that you are catching it now. Stopping in your twenties will give you a lot more productive years when you are younger and more energy to accomplish your dreams!