Interesting bit of AV activity when I heard my brother is going to be getting married, immediate anxiety about the celebrations, that previously would of had me feeling worried about "Relapsing" for months.
Nope, not anymore. Worrying "But what if I drink?" is sort of inherently absurd and irrational. I wouldn't worry "What if I forget to wear trousers?" or "What if I turn up dressed in a gorilla costume?", this is absurd because I am in control of these things, so the fear makes no sense. As I am in control of myself and my actions, I needn't worry about the wedding nor it's celebration, because I will never drink again.
Now I can look forward to the event safe in the knowledge alcohol won't be a problem for me. True freedom.