when will I begin to trust myself..?
Well..its day 24. I never thought I'd get this far and am now starting to wonder HOW did I get this far? All my friends and family have so much faith in me and whilst I am so grateful, sometimes it feels like an added pressure. I know that sounds selfish..I don't mean it to. The thing is I know there are a million reasons for me not to drink, but the bottom line is I have no faith in myself. I absolutely do not trust myself. Right now I believe the only thing stopping me from drinking is the fact that my husband does not leave any money in the house, so I couldn't drink if I wanted to.I am absolutely terrified he might accidentally leave his wallet lying around and I won't be strong enough to resist..and I'm not willing to test that theory out just yet...