I kicked off at age ten, by the end of high school I'd been hospitalised three times as a resuLt of drinking, including a stomach pump.
Periods of control, and abstinence, but it just got worse.
Nothing scared me sober.
Beatings, car prang's, locked up..... Blah blah blah
No matter what I resolved or promised or vowed..... It just didn't happen.
An example of the category 3 "hopeless " variety alcoholic.
Throughout the history of alcoholism, there have always been three types.
Those who abuse alcohol for a period of their lives and eventually they get sick and tired of being sick and tired and they resolved "never again " and they quit.
Those who abuse alcohol for a period of their lives and eventually something really bad happens, normally something that threatens their security or health or both and they quit.
Then there's my type, nothing stops us, we want to stop, but it just never happens, despite repeated attempts, therapy, medicines..... Whatever.
Anyway...... Long story short, I have stopped and stayed stopped working the 12 steps and having a spiritual awakening.
Age 42.
Will power was sufficient to end drug use, but with booze that was a somewhat unhelpful power