I was 39/40 when I got sober. I found this community was a great help and I recommend you throw tyourself into it
The bottom line tho was I decided I didn't want to drink anymore - no matter what.
I accepted that I could never be the kind of drinker I wanted to be...which was basically someone who drank as much as he could without any ill effects.
I saw the way that Drinking road ended and it wasn't pretty.
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