Originally Posted by
TheCrimsonKing 
Rather than be happy when I hear somebody has achieved sobriety before my age I think I feel a pang of jelousy and then self-loathing; coming from that place of knowing I am a bloody idiot. What an ego.
If you do go to AA and do the 12-step programme, one of the things that you can learn (if you choose to!! - I can think of at least one person who has made the decision to stay angry as it's his 'right') is how to get past those resentments. Resentments against yourself, and against other people. Raging against yourself or others isn't a good way to keep sober and happy. Go steady on yourself. Many people need to hit rock bottom before they find the incentive to fight their addiction. Much better to put that emotional energy into getting a sobriety plan of action together for yourself now. No amount of anger will change the past.
'Grant me serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.'