Cowgirlie! So sorry to read that you are struggling.
There was a period of time that I was a slave to 14 days of abstinence from alcohol juxtaposed with what I considered to be earned alcohol ingestion for another couple of weeks. Repeat. Reeeeepeat. Until...there was just a long year of alcohol abstinence.
Alcohol had an enormous place for me in trying to alleviate a lot of of the discomfort I felt during this time of life with who I am naturally and comfortably as an individual versus how I needed to be while wearing the other various hats in my personal life. But me under the influence of alcohol is not me at all so it just really messed everything up and stalled genuine personal growth
for a really long time.
Have you considered talking with a therapist or counselor at all?
Keep at it Cowgirlie. We are all here for support. Glad you are here.
