Recovery would be a lot easier if it was a straight line from A to B with things getting better the farther we are along - but thats not often true, especially in the early days.
Early recovery is rough and thats one of the main reasons people stumble - they expect instant relief or improvement. We spent years getting instant gratification from the bottle after all, right?
I assumed that I'd just get sober and everything would be awesome. It didn;t turn out that way.
What I found was it took me a long time to feel normal - much longer than I'd expected. I really underestimated the damage I'd done physically and emotionally.
the good news is - it will happen - you will feel good and normal again, I promise.
You have to have faith ipaid - if faith in nothing else rest assured in the stories of those who have gone before you - things do get better
don't get discouraged
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Originally Posted by
ipaidwithmylife 
Hi: so I apologize in advance for the endless rant, but...
here's the thing: my messed-up brain terribly puzzles me: up to a few weeks ago, when I'd just quit, it seemed like I was sorta heading in the right direction: I had brain fog during the day, but I still experienced active thoughts at night, dreamt, remembered everything about my day... I was hopeful and didn't really mind the set-back that much...
Since the beginning of this week, though: I feel like it's all going backwards: I say the dumbest things, put things in the wrong place... Is this normal? And can I expect progress again? I binge-drank(bottle of wine or five cans of beer two times a week, for about a year and four months, so I'm kind of counting the same amount of time for my recovery.) I stopped drinking a little before New-years...
To be honest: sobriety hasn't been such a positive experience, up til this point(as you can already tell from multiple posts of mine.) I keep waiting for some miracle to happen. I'm not religious by any means, but I pray everyday. I only want me back. I miss me a lot. This right now: is NOT me! I don't know who the hell this person is, but... ugh I just... I feel lost and it never, for one minute stops.
Any tips to feel better or words of consolation? It'll be much appreciated...