Yeah the reason why I asked about age....is I think I have a lot of self-anger and self-hatred that i have not taken care of this sooner.
I'm 38 and feel like a dick that I've not put this to bed sooner. I can remember at 29 thinking "there's no way I'm going to drag this into my thirties" after an unsavoury incident....and 9 years later, the same ****.
Rather than be happy when I hear somebody has achieved sobriety before my age I think I feel a pang of jelousy and then self-loathing; coming from that place of knowing I am a bloody idiot. What an ego.