I've been off the deep end with the caffeine for about a week and now seem to be in a rut of depression. I'm sure there is a correlation. The nic at 4% is no big deal but WOW, what a yoyo effect. I started this thread because I sensed my body was not metabolizing either well anymore (maybe never did but it was all masked by near-constant alcohol intoxication). This is not all that is going on as wife and I are recovering together and communication is at an all time low and the energy in our house is so chaotic most of the time. I've always felt I was the rock but not so much today. I swear it feels like a relapse and suppose it is of sorts--going against my own word/plan. I guess fixing that part is as simple as cutting back to 2 cups and getting back on the treadmill. Accountability is helpful. Just typing this I feel a little better.