Originally Posted by
scaredofchange 
WHY!!!? Why do I continue to do this!?!?
I did it because I was addicted to alcohol and I didn't know how to deal with the constant argument in my head over whether or not to drink. I would often drink just to make the argument I was having with myself about drinking stop. That worked within a few minutes and for a few hours, but had horrific negative side effects.
The other thing I've tried to stop the fight in my head is starving that voice arguing for another drink. While that method took a few months to work it lasts for as long as I don't drink and has had wonderful positive side effects.