Thank you for your reply. I never went to therapy or counselling even though my parents and a few doctors recommended it as I was always too scared to talk to someone who I don't know about my problems. However, now I am starting to think it's probably for the best if I do.
I always thought that I would be able to work through it by going out with friends and putting it to the back of my mind but instead I just keep drinking myself stupid, and it's making things worse instead of better.
I really appreciate your reply! It feels better to know there's people out there like you, and websites like this that can help people work through their problems.