To be honest, Ready, I would. I'm at this particular moment wound up tight as a drum and I've been like this for several days -- I'm exhausted and worried and can't slow down my mind or even sort through priorities well, and I would dearly love a drink if I could have just one without awakening my whole addiction. As you see, maybe, just writing this wakes it up a little.
Alcohol was my first drug, my favorite, my expertise, and it hit the spot for me beautifully, which of course is why I abused it. I'm ok with being sober now. But I really loved to drink, and if I allow myself to think about it (which I ordinarily don't), I miss it like hell.