Had an anxiety filled sleep and today, while not anxious, I can't stop thinking about not drinking. It's taking up too much mental capital, much as it did some time last week. About the only time I wasn't thinking of alcohol was when I was lifting weights this morning. I'm trying to bury myself in work and also take care of some other tasks that need attending, but I can't seem to muster the energy to channel my thinking.
It's not that I necessarily want a drink or want to get drunk because I don't. I just don't want to have to think about it just as I don't think about not using every other drug, whether I've used in the past or not. Before this turns into a full blown whine-fest I'll end this post.