MissDaisy
It sounds to me that you are prepared to do whatever it is you need to do to keep your children with you. My advice is to stop drinking alcohol, full stop. This may or may not be the hardest thing you ever have to do, but to prevent things getting any worse for you and your children, this is what you have to do.
Please please don't carry on drinking and therefore allowing the insidiousness of alcoholism to creep in and take more from you than you are prepared to give.
I speak from my own experience and am glad to say I am now over 2 years sober and am very very gradually getting back some of what I have lost through drinking. I am a mother to one wonderful daughter.
