@Anna thank you I feel like now I am not ready to commit honestly for the rest of my life as I am only 25 and it seems like that would be a big commitment for now I am going to do the 50 days and see how it goes I am hoping that may calm things a little if not I am going full time.
@sugarbear thank you for the message the plan is to give up the cocaine 100% I have had heart palpitations after huge cocaine binges which cant be good at all, the alcohol I just want to drink on special occasions.