Thank you all! Yes, it is a very painful time!!!! Every second of my day seems unbearable but I know and hear you it will get better!
I do realize this needed to happen. My own fears of loneliness, my poor self esteem, and my need to feel like a partner in a relationship have gotten me to this awful place. I do have a therapist, and I know this will be the focus of my sessions!
I will take your advice dandelion! I will do whatever it takes to put one step in front of another to survive this and more importantly never let myself get to this point again! I will also be attending alanon. I will read and read more.....This forum is a part of my support group!!
I am praying for understanding and forgiveness! It's so difficult to process his behavior and the hurt he caused !
Thank you all!