5 days sober
My name is Lily and I am an alcoholic. These are words that I never thought would possibly come from my own mouth. My friends and family all saw that I had a problem, but I always denied that there was an issue. I'm 27 years old, and I've been a true alcoholic for four years. I've lost relationships because of alcohol, and it only drove me to drink more. I'm the kind of person that could buy 8 miniatures of vodka a night, and still function without anyone truly noticing... Or at least this is what I thought. I've had my share of embarrassment with alcohol. I've fallen at bars, I've said some horrible things, and I always get to a point where I black out. My final " aha" moment was 6 days ago. I realized I was neglecting life, and shutting myself to the world because I wanted to drink. I've subconciously knew what I was doing, but never wanted to admit it.... Well I'm admitting it. I don't want to discuss this with family or friends, but I don't want to do it alone. I'm incredibly proud of myself for being sober 5 days, especially since I've gone out to dinner with friends twice. It's really hard but I hate the person I allowrd myself to become. Being sober these last few days have opened my eyes to see that life really IS beautiful WITHOUT alcohol!!!