"What am I going to do differently is the million dollar question!"
An idea from someone as old as dirt and may be in this age un doable.
Try many meetings and become ACTIVE in several groups to associate with sober people and help other alcoholics.
I needed to forget the image I had of God and choose my own Higher Power which is the spirit of Mother Nature. I’m sitting in a NE blizzard now and it has far more power than anything I can ever imagine.
BE WELL