I blew it.
I did the bad thing on Friday. It was choice and the wrong one. I went out and didn't just drink but got drunk. I let some guy hit on me even though I have a boyfriend. All I did was talk to him but I shouldn't have once he started trying to bust a move. I spent yesterday sick all day. I'm going to pick myself up, dust myself off and start again. I had been romanticizing drinking and allowing my mind to linger..... the reality is very different, it never ends well. I had been thinking of just keeping it to myself and not fessing up on here but that feels sneaky and deceptive, I don't want to be that way. I had 51 days and I can do it again. All those sober days felt good and drinking made me feel awful. I learned a valuable lesson. When I was drinking all the time I'd gotten used to the hangovers.... yesterday was rough. I don't want to feel that way again.