OK, you have more information now than you did when you posted before. You have the beginnings of a plan--you are going to do some more recovery work. You'll get there, but yes, you need to get moving. You don't HAVE to keep up with the charade of counseling. If he's drinking, it's basically a waste of time, and keeping you stuck.
Hugs, maybe this is what you need to confirm what you need to do.