I understand that you're having bad dreams/bad experiences. I am 90% sure that this is caused by too much drinking. Perhaps you are hallucinating or creating these instances inside your head which makes it a reality. I recommend taking atleast a 3 week break. It will be hard but worth it. Alcohol strips your body of good vitamins etc, therefore making it very hard to stay concentrated and hydrated. If you are drinking liquor, i recommend taking multivitamins to stop this issue.