You're not alone Dan! Dee, Janie, LBrain, everybody - great support as usual. Dan, you have the benefit of the experience of folks that have been there, done that and saw the light and are are committed to being sober. Keep coming on to this site. And I'm right there with you on the wine and needing more and more, that's why I'm here on SR and am new to recovery as well. I had enough and wanted a change and to live differently, sounds like you're there too (?). I realized that nothing (NOTHING) good came from drinking.