Made it through the night. Very restless with little sleep. I woke probably every 20 minutes. Feeling of panic and hopelessness. I don't want to drink though. I just want my life back. I feel like a zombie. I wish I could sleep. Glad this board is here. I'm just laying in bed. I want to talk to my wife about the divorce, but my brain is not all there. I'm glad it's Sunday so I can lay here. I managed to get some cereal down. I'm going to check in with my Sponser later.