Babs congrats. Dolly., I feel you. This part of the journey (sobriety) has just begun for me. I'm scared to face my first social event without booze in hand. I'm also scared what will happen to my relationship with my hubby when he sees that I've truly changed. For so long, he has "taken care" of me, covered for me, whatever it was he did. I'm worried about going in different directions as well. I've been on my own spiritual path for some time now and although I've wanted to share it with him, have had to mostly go it alone. He listens,'doesn't mock, but is not an active participant. I'm certain his drinking will not change. It is not toxic, like mine, but it is also not in empathy with what I am faced with. Time will tell, but I feel you. I too have a loving, caring husband and father and can't imagine anyone else, but am worried about our connectedness
Hang in there all you moms and know I'm sending love to all.