Wow, thanks everyone for your messages and support- it's the first time I've seen them.
I'm actually trying really hard currently to abstain from all alcohol consumption. Today is Day 7 and I'll admit it's getting tougher, not easier. I didn't sleep a wink last night (literally sat up awake all night) because it has got to the point where I really feel like I'm gonna cave.... so I keep eating instead
which is a sure fire way to stop me from having that first drink.
I'm also trying to get into a daily exercise routine so I can be healthy and fit. I'm liking myself a whole lot more being sober and it's so nice to not have this constant overpowering feeling of guilt and remorse permanently hanging over me. I tend to self- hate a lot. I so desperately need a new me.