Make that irrevocable decision to stop drinking. With no conditions. Then, make it as easy as possible for you to succeed by framing this in your mind as favorably as possible. But, you NEED NOTHING other than who and what you are to succeed. The degree of difficulty is irrelevant to a decision like this.
To think you will fail without <anything, earthly or ephemeral> is simply your voice of addiction. Reject that AV, and demand of yourself what you deserve. Then, like that *snap*, you are free.