Thread: I dumped it out
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Old 01-23-2015, 10:34 PM
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genesuu
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I dumped it out

I'm not looking for a pat on the back or anything of the sort. I'm just saying for the first time in forever I've poured out my beer because I'm sick of the person it's making me. I'm being secretive and deceitful and awful. The only reason i drink now is to help with anxiety but in reality it just makes things worse. I've known it was a problem for a long while. I think security in having some alcohol is huge with me.

It's got to stop because it's interfering with my life and making me irresponsible. I hate it. It causes so much stress. It may take it away for a bit but it comes back in abundance.

I don't want it anymore, and at least for tonight, i said no. I don't want that.

I wish people would understand how much i don't want this on my life and yet how it keeps sneaking its way in. I just wish non alcoholics understood a little more.

All i can do is try to be a survivor so i can help.
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