Thanks Zoso!
I think the struggle for me is to figure out, which feelings are "feelings from the past" and which feelings are "gut feelings". it's like getting into a car again after having been in a car accident. You know you're a good driver, you know the statistics, but your feelings tell you "something isn't quite right here - wanna get out of the car".
Blackandblue - maybe this is what you mean by "trusting yourself enough again".