Hey, there is free help out there, salvation army is a good start. I had a close friend of mine get hooked on meth once and went a lot of years, and it isn't something you can just quit. It is too physically addictive.
Posting here is good for you, we all have been in similar situations. You are NOT alone and no one here will judge you at all. We want our friends to get better, and you are among friends here.