Hi all. Semester has started and so far so good. Today is day 3 no smoking (again) but this time feels different, more hopeful. Instead of focusing on what I'm giving up, I'm focusing on how clean and unencumbered I feel. In truth, it's gotten to where I smoke sometimes even when I don't want to. I feel trapped by it. Am craving big time right now but thinking about where I want to be in six months...a non-smoker. I want to be free of all addictions and not depend on something to make me feel better. I use smoking as a respite from reality, to take a moment before I get going or deal with things. I have been smoking for about 25 years and have been fearful and reluctant to give it up. The unknown is scary. But I hate feeling enslaved to it. I wish I could snap my fingers and be six months in as a non-smoker (of course, says the addict who wants immediate gratification).
Advbike--I love Anthony de Mello. I've read Awareness a couple of times but it has been awhile...you're right...his words jog something in my brain too and make things clearer. I just pulled up a PDF of Awareness on my iPad so I can read snatches of it more frequently when I'm feeling nutty! Kind of like now as I'm going through nicotine withdrawals!!!
OL and Else, hope you are both feeling better and better post-surgery. V, love those photos! I hope you find them all
Dee, I saw on a thread in the newcomers that you had been under the weather too with a toothache. Hope you're healed up.
Am trying a new recipe tonight...have a pork loin in the oven.