Oh yeah I totally agree, that's why I want to work to change that. Everyday I'm sober though I find myself thinking a little more about others, being more open and happier for others. I just want to be able to reinforce that and keep it on a positive path. Thinking back to being the middle of my H binges, all i did was get angry, jealous, and overall negative. When I'd hear my old addict friends talk all it ever was, was gossip, and conspiring against each other. It's craziness, makes me wonder why we even want to do it to begin with.