Hi Cecilia - I'm glad you're still here
I know for myself I got out of my recovery what I put into it.
Time and again I put other things and other people ahead of my recovery...and I drank again.
I really needed to make time for my recovery.
I also had to accept that drinking wasn't a viable option if I wanted things to be different.
Alcohol is not an agent of change for drinkers like us - it's an acquiescence, an appeasement to the status quo. It doesn't create, it ossifies...
I also needed a little faith - faith that if I stayed sober I'd be able to find all those things I wanted to find - that better life, those better friends, that elusive love, that better me.
I should be clear tho - just being sober didn't get me all that - it just gave me a solid base to work from
It did happen - but not overnight. Sometime it was a real waiting game.
SR gave me a lot of comfort in that waiting period. Don't underestimate the value of that