Same here! There is no way I could have shared some of the things I have face to face with someone. Plus I have gotten pretty goofy from time to time and I would hate to have to explain myself. I highly doubt I would have made it this far without human support though. I don't have a "home" on here because I bounce from forum to forum. I'm not in AA but have spent some time on there and learned a few things. I'm not doing a program either but RR seems like what I did.
Exploring the religious thing was great for me. Whatever you decide on should come from you alone. At the start of this I felt like some supernatural force was leading me out. It was pretty cool. I now believe it was one of the many fantastic ways our brain operates. It is amazing to me the way we adapt. Knowledge is power! I just wish I could tap that ability when I wanted it also not just when I absolutely need it.