Originally Posted by
FullStop 
This is my first post and I am quite nervous. I just found AVRT today and have committed to my Big Plan and am terrified of failure to say the least. Countless seem the promises I have made to myself and not kept. The Beast within is very loud and I feel very small, though determined. I have been reading all of your posts, thank you so much for your insight!
Hi FullStop. Welcome to SR. You sounds just like me a little more than 2 years ago. I know what you mean about breaking countless promises. I have tried to quit smoking countless times. I was terrified I was going to fail at this too. I think that helped me because that terror came from me realizing I had to quit
or else! The idea of being completely lost to an alcoholic life and taking my family with me was too much to imagine.
You do have a choice here. It does not have to end that way. When I was drinking I convinced myself I had to keep doing it. I didn't.