Welcome to the site, it is amazingly rich in useful content and knowledgeable posters who have been there and done that. I would bet that after 30 or 40 hours of reading through the site you will have learned a huge amount about alcoholism and also about yourself. Maybe you then revisit the question of how big a problem you have or don't have. There are loads of people here willing to talk with you in order to help you so good luck. When you are ready maybe tell us a little more about what is bothering you and you can gather some wider perspectives on it?