It's New Years Eve & the crowds will be pissed
I can tell you it's nothing I've missed
No morning of dread that vile day after
No alcohol needed its natural laugher
Why didn't i wake from my 10 year nightmare
Not giving a Shitt i just didn't care
My daughters they took a firm second place
For this reason alone an utter disgrace
What right minded Mum puts her booze before kids
Wine bottles yes please off with the lids
Once my mind set on the mission ahead
It's time for my wine you kids off to bed
I'd still read them books and kiss them goodnight
See i was a good mother , bullshittt , yeah right!
I'd lulled myself into feelings of illusion
Surely there was a better solution
I've learnt to forgive myself after time
& make amends with these children of mine
It hasn't been easy I'm a work in progress
Thank God i have finally cleaned up my mess
The proofs in the pudding Its 18 months now
Why was i lucky i just don't know how
Not all of us make it I'm blessed i was one
My horror is over my new life's begun
No longer do i look at 10 wasted years
The love i have now brings me to tears
For out of the bad came something so good
So I'll be the best Mum i know that i should
When i got a text from My daughter that day
I'm proud of you Mum , you've come a long way
I love you so much your my whole world to me
That's all that i needed those words set me free .