My best friend is a drinker, a party animal. We went through a lot of the same things in life and I thought I found my soul mate friend. When I left my AXH, I also spent a lot of time alone (loving it!) and thinking. We are still friends but not best friends. It makes me sad now and then, but I now hang out with people that drink occasionally, like me, but don't party to excess. Also something you said struck a nerve, that I have no tolerance for co-dependency anymore. When I left the AXH, suddenly I found that I wanted NO PART in any of that, and have since cut contact with my alcholic/drug addicted mother. It's tough but the feeling of relief says it all. I would rather be alone with myself in peace than with others that cause anxiety or stress. That sense of peace has brought new (and some old) friends into my life and it is enriched and definitely not lonely. Hang in there, enjoy the time to think and sort things out, and enjoy the peace and tranquility.
