Its not jumbled at all. I'm just so happy for you that your mind is seeing things so clearly; that you are being given confirmation in seeing things clearly. That's great that you are and that you're putting the proper label on what it is and put it on its proper shelf.
I hate an A tries to buy back being in your good graces. Its so tacky.
You're doing good...keep up the good work on yourself! HUGS.