Originally Posted by
Shutterbug1 
The pain hits hard and deep...then it simply goes away when i remember that i am free now from an experience that was overall horrific and tragic.
That, exactly. I feel the exact same way. It hits so hard sometimes and feels like it's going to drag me under, but then I remember what it was like... the lies, the deceit, the passive aggressive control...and it goes away, and I'm ok.
I think we're on the right road Shutterbug.