soberlicious I can attest to that. Like Amy Winehouse I didn't wanna go to rehab, recovery road , programs what have you. I was different, they were wrong, I wasn't that bad, my life really sucked ect ect blah blah. But somehow I still implicitly accepted the premise that the cure lay on that road, and whether I was consciously avoiding it or not that is where it was , and since I chose not to go that way I was affectively doomed.
Taking off the chains I fashioned and walking away didn't even appear as an option, whodda thunk it could be?