I can relate to that with your husband, PBC. I think mine was making do without me, too. I didn't realize how disconnected I was, I thought I was pulling it off, but I wasn't very present and it was felt by him.
Thoughts are out to you in Australia today in regards to the hostage situation in Sydney. Breaks my heart, I hope it all will end ok. Why does there have to be such awful, violent people in the world? I just don't get it.