Originally Posted by
LittleBirds3 
He loves the thought of someone to take care of him. But he doesn't love me. So, when he says nice things or that he loves me, I just remind myself that he doesn't even love himself - he can't possibly love me. He just wants me to go back to being his caretaker.
Thank you so much. He calls because he needs something and he thinks I might be able to give it to him. He also hates himself so much...it's awful. He's in so much pain and he is constantly trying to relieve it but ironically he keeps creating more pain....I just don't understand...but I do know that his version of love hurts him and whoever he chooses to "love".