Hey, I just wanted to say: you are a good person. OK? You need to forgive yourself, and just feel all these feelings. You are a normal human being, and you are allowed to feel everything that you are feeling -- about your daughter, about your mother, about your ex -- EVERYTHING. Even anger. Even frustration. Even relief. Don't be afraid to feel.
I think it is a really good thing that you finally cried last night. Keep crying. I think of crying as like detox for my brain. I used alcohol to stop feeling, stop crying. But now that I don't drink I have realized this: the feelings pass. They will not kill me. The crying happens and then it passes too. I have to do these things, to move the energy through.
I am so proud of you. I don't know you, but I can tell you are a good person in a lot of pain. Please don't drink today. Please try to allow yourself to feel. It is worth it. You will find you can tolerate it. You will find it helps to really feel.
