Welcome! Loved your post...I never knew the true definition of self pity thanks to you now I do. To see it written like that gives me a sort of empowerment over it. Thx again and keep posting and reading. It has made the world of difference for me this time around. As far as your home group go back and give it a try. If it don't feel right find another one. I personall take a little from all the recovery programs. I really like avrt . But all in all I think they all have something positive to offer. Bottom line don't give up!